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As I've told you before, I got pretty good at faking my boobs. But you can imagine that it is very annoying and exhausting to always be worried about accidental exposures, to always be worried about other kinds of clothing mishaps, to always be worried about somebody finding out about my secret. And finally, sexual activities are always a challenge – either by trying to keep the top on or by being embarrassed by having to confess the actual lack of breasts. Google is your friend. And so, I started an online research about how to increase your breast size. The most obvious answer was breast augmentation, of course. I didn't have the money for that, and I still don't really have it. So, this wasn't an option. I found a lot about all kinds of herbal pills, oils, you name it. After a while, my conclusion was, that my breasts were so small because I was so slim.  These are the oldest naked ones I could find - you can see how slim I was, and my chest was almost completely fla
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Water Party

Water parties are pretty fun. Many people, drinks, water, foam. It's a bit different for me, as I usually avoid situations in which I would have to wear a bikini - because of bad experiences in the past. At the time when the water party was about to take place, I was at the height of my boob faking skills. I didn't only pretend to have breasts, I even pretended to have huge ones. Of course this was impossible to do with a bikini, so when my friends told me that we should go to the water party, I started to become pretty nervous. This was the kind of situation that I would tend to avoid during the past years. Unfortunately, I had really run out of excuses, as I had already agreed to go out on that evening, before I knew it was a water party. There was no escape for me this time, and that was quite a challenge. Revealing my flatness was no option, obviously. Just as a status reminder: this one of my "self-documentation" pics, showing how my chest actually looked like ar

My Booty

  Today I am going to not elaborate on my boobs, no, today my booty is my topic. Yes, I know it's unbelievably hot etc., I have been told that one million times. And yes, it is real. No silicone inside. One could think that it is great to have such a booty. Well, yes, it is somehow. But in my situation, it increased my problem. I always thought that my booty is the compensation for not having boobs. The positive aspect is that it is much easier to fake boobs than it is to fake a booty; therefore I should be happy about it. But the problem is something else. You see the problem? It makes my flat chest looking even more awkward. If you have a curvy backside, then you are supposed to have a curvy chest too. As I can't hide that fat butt, I have to hide the flatness of my chest. I think it would have all been much easier for me, if I had no shape at all. Then I'd just be one of the countless match shaped girls posing in tight pants in the gym on Instagram.

I'm a fetish :)

Originally, my intention of this blog was to show other women who might have the same issues with their non-existent breasts that they are not alone. And, of course, to close this chapter for me. But in fact, I got plenty of e-mails from men. Men telling me that they are turned on by the fact that I pretend to have boobs while being almost flat. I didn't even know that this could be a turn on for somebody, I rather thought it's something that would turn men off. There is even a whole blog about women doing the same thing that I do (see https://flatandfaking.blogspot.com/). For me, this is especially interesting because I am seeing how many others are bothered by their lack of boobs too. I don't have sex outside of relationships that often, so there were not many men that I had "introduced" to my situation. When I had sex, I usually kept my top on. If I was about to have sex, I went to the bathroom first and removed the silicone pads from my bra and put them into m

Getting Used to it

As time passed by, I grew more and more accustomed to the process of creating a chest before leaving the house. Actually, it was rather creating a chest before anybody could see me. In fact, I even went to bed with a bra because I didn't want my roommate to see me braless. It was a heavily padded bra, but I didn't put any falsies in for sleeping - so my boobs might have looked slightly smaller, but I doubt that my roommate ever noticed that. That was my common look these days, I still was pretty slim, my booty was already quite curvy and my pads and bras made my chest curvy too These were also the days in which I went out to party quite often. I never drank much, so it didn't have a negative effect on my grades. But the challenge, of course, was to always look good with varying outfits. Every woman probably agrees that finding clothes is difficult enough already, now add that you have to exclusively pick clothes which make your padded bra look good. Yes, it wasn't easy.

Uncomfortable Family Gathering

About two years since I started to wear boobs, I have really grown accustomed to having them. Believe me, if you see yourself with boobs all the day, you quickly forget that you don't actually have some and the padded look gets the normal look. The picture above shows my normal padding at that time. Nice firm and round boobies matching the slim body I had back then. Nobody knew it was just bra and pads inside. Just to give you a comparison, this is how my chest actually looked at that time: I don't have many naked photos of myself, as you can imagine, I didn't actually enjoy seeing myself like that. But I think this one should be enough to show the real size of my almost nonexistent boobs. Around that time, I was also invited to a family gathering. Of course, I was looking forward to seeing my extended family, which I don't meet often as they are wildly distributed over the states. The downside of the family gatherings is all the bragging and comparing. Everybody wants

Difficult: The Swimming Pool

After the first year of college - which I now also look back on as my first year with boobs, the summer came. What do you do in summer when it gets hot? Right, go to the swimming pool. That's where my friends from college wanted to take me to. Actually, this is something that I have always avoided - I always felt rather uncomfortable because my flat chest would be completely on display without any chance to hide. And now it would be even more difficult because all my friends from college only knew me with boobs, so I can't go to the pool without boobs. Sounds easy. But I didn't own any swim dress. I went to the store and tried a one-piece bathing suit. It sat so firm that it squeezed my chest completely flat, I looked like a boy with a fat ass wearing a girl's bathing suit. The only solution would be to wear my bra with the pads underneath the bathing suit, but what would that look like? Right, ridiculous. So, I went on to try a two piece. Actually, not only one, multip